>> I have been trying to convince myself that 2025 is a new start. I have been grieving since September. I can't keep going like this.

I'm terrified, but hopeful.<<

You might take a look at goals_on_dw. It has ideas for New Year's resolutions and other goals, not just hard stuff but also self-care and fun ones. Keep It Simple has a few less-typical options for people who are not feeling like the usual high-energy resolutions this season. Look for something that feels inspiring or soothing without putting pressure on yourself.