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The difference between thinking you know something and actually finding out that what you thought you knew was true.. it shouldn't be any different, right? But it is. Why?
For some reason, it kind of hurts? Maybe hurt isn't the right word. I have a gross, sinking feeling in the pit of stomach. An icky feeling.
All I can say is good luck. It'll get old. It always does. It's all so boring.
It is kind of fitting, honestly. That two boring people would end up together. Trying to have some semblance of a normal life. Am I jaded or does everything seem like a fucking simulation? Basic relationship #34 activate.
It doesn't even feel like jealousy. It feels like pity.
Here's the thing: your deep conversations? Shallow. That music? Is it really that good? Enough to listen to the SAME FUCKING PLAYLIST for 20 years? (It's not, I promise). His family? God.. good fucking luck. You'll find out. Lol. Geez. I almost feel like I have a duty to warn the poor bitch. ๐ Maybe you'll even help him find Jesus again, lmao.
What a fucking snoozefest. Bon voyage, homie. Cie la viez, or however the fuck you spell that.
Anyway, tonight an Italian man who was playing fucking bagpipes shirtless told me he likes my Lord of the Rings backpack ๐ but take your step kid to fucking little league lmao and say bye bye to all that money you thought you were gonna save.
For some reason, it kind of hurts? Maybe hurt isn't the right word. I have a gross, sinking feeling in the pit of stomach. An icky feeling.
All I can say is good luck. It'll get old. It always does. It's all so boring.
It is kind of fitting, honestly. That two boring people would end up together. Trying to have some semblance of a normal life. Am I jaded or does everything seem like a fucking simulation? Basic relationship #34 activate.
It doesn't even feel like jealousy. It feels like pity.
Here's the thing: your deep conversations? Shallow. That music? Is it really that good? Enough to listen to the SAME FUCKING PLAYLIST for 20 years? (It's not, I promise). His family? God.. good fucking luck. You'll find out. Lol. Geez. I almost feel like I have a duty to warn the poor bitch. ๐ Maybe you'll even help him find Jesus again, lmao.
What a fucking snoozefest. Bon voyage, homie. Cie la viez, or however the fuck you spell that.
Anyway, tonight an Italian man who was playing fucking bagpipes shirtless told me he likes my Lord of the Rings backpack ๐ but take your step kid to fucking little league lmao and say bye bye to all that money you thought you were gonna save.
