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Another fun day.
Dec. 31st, 2024 04:06 pmIt seems impossible for anything to go smoothly. Everything has 50 steps and countless moving parts. It shouldn't be this convoluted.
I suppose this whole ordeal is full of lessons that I should have learned a long time ago. Never depend on anyone but yourself, because no matter what you think things are like or what you think people are thinking- you're either wrong or it's gonna change when you least expect it. That's all obvious, but still.. you just get caught in your bubble, living your day to day life.. not happy, not sad.. and then poof- everything is upside down.
I have been too depressed to really do much of anything lately. The holidays have been pretty awful. Just have to make it through tonight and that's the end of that for a while. But I keep telling myself I'm going to do something besides lay on the couch and I just don't. A whole day goes by and I've done nothing but waste away.
I hope that I can move past this.
I suppose this whole ordeal is full of lessons that I should have learned a long time ago. Never depend on anyone but yourself, because no matter what you think things are like or what you think people are thinking- you're either wrong or it's gonna change when you least expect it. That's all obvious, but still.. you just get caught in your bubble, living your day to day life.. not happy, not sad.. and then poof- everything is upside down.
I have been too depressed to really do much of anything lately. The holidays have been pretty awful. Just have to make it through tonight and that's the end of that for a while. But I keep telling myself I'm going to do something besides lay on the couch and I just don't. A whole day goes by and I've done nothing but waste away.
I hope that I can move past this.
