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Blah blah blah divorce blah
Jan. 8th, 2025 03:10 pmI just made my own lavender simple syrup. It is delicious. I love lavender lemonade so much and I only ever get it like twice a year. I don't know why it didn't occur to me to just make it myself. -_-
I'm working from home today. That is about the extent of what's going on.
There might be some winter weather starting on Friday, so we'll see what happens with that. Just another fun thing to experience all by myself. :/
I am trying to be positive and optimistic. I just feel like everything was so abrupt. Things were normal one day and the next day everything was completely upside down. And within a week it was done. Twenty years just over. Regardless of the good, the bad, and the mediocre.. it just seems so anticlimactic. I wasn't worth trying for. Maybe he wasn't either.
I don't know if I'll ever find someone to share life with after this. I feel like my standards are too high, but at the same time I have no idea what I even want in a significant other. And I don't know if I can put myself through this again. Is it even worth it? Yeah, it's nice to have someone you can rely on when you need to, but maybe the lesson here is that I need to learn to rely on myself.
There are pros from this whole thing and I'm trying to focus on those. Did we even have anything in common anymore? The more I look at it from all angles, not really. Time was really the only thing. There were times I didn't even like him as a person. So, is this really all that bad? No.
Oh well. I 'm off to play Stardew Valley.
And if anyone out there finds this, and you're a single man of Asian or Scottish descent (I have types, ok?) who is no younger than 35.. hit me up. Haha.
I'm working from home today. That is about the extent of what's going on.
There might be some winter weather starting on Friday, so we'll see what happens with that. Just another fun thing to experience all by myself. :/
I am trying to be positive and optimistic. I just feel like everything was so abrupt. Things were normal one day and the next day everything was completely upside down. And within a week it was done. Twenty years just over. Regardless of the good, the bad, and the mediocre.. it just seems so anticlimactic. I wasn't worth trying for. Maybe he wasn't either.
I don't know if I'll ever find someone to share life with after this. I feel like my standards are too high, but at the same time I have no idea what I even want in a significant other. And I don't know if I can put myself through this again. Is it even worth it? Yeah, it's nice to have someone you can rely on when you need to, but maybe the lesson here is that I need to learn to rely on myself.
There are pros from this whole thing and I'm trying to focus on those. Did we even have anything in common anymore? The more I look at it from all angles, not really. Time was really the only thing. There were times I didn't even like him as a person. So, is this really all that bad? No.
Oh well. I 'm off to play Stardew Valley.
And if anyone out there finds this, and you're a single man of Asian or Scottish descent (I have types, ok?) who is no younger than 35.. hit me up. Haha.
